A Journal of Transition to Primal Abundance

Thursday, May 27, 2004

I'm still amazed!
I wonder if this "feeling great most of the time" thing wears off?
The detox a while ago was minimal.
I gained a couple of pounds. All gone and then some now.
Felt tired, a little grumpy. I thought it might be "hormones" but it wasn't.
Slept alot, ate alot as long as it was RAW and not on the heavy end of the spectrum...(ate lots of salad, went easy on sweet or dried fruit)
Now it's "bounce back time"
Feeling good, sleep's back to normal (7 hours average)
Added some sublingual B12 "just in case".
Feeling energized, and yet calm as well....I don't think it's paradoxical,
loving my food, my body, my life at the moment.
Good momentum.
Now I'm taking the next step and getting back to work on my music...

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

I went through a serious “detox” last week, allergy and asthma literally ATTACKED me for 3 or 4 days.
Got over the hump though, and I'm back on track. One of the things I did was make a decision to switch to mostly juices while I felt bad, in order to let the body heal without the additional stress of solid food.
It really helped to do this. Switching to juices (green and veggies, but no fruit) really reduced the allergy/asthma/detox symptoms and left me feeling better. Also slept a lot, around 10 hours a day.
It’s interesting how just doing some simple things like sleeping and juicing can help the body help itself.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

For the last few days I’ve been plugging away, still faithfully raw, even though I’ve hit a plateau in weight loss which is perfectly natural given my personal metabolism/situation. I have decided to ignore it, to stay off the scale for a week or two, to remain faithful to my raw commitment and daily nice long walks. I’ve also told my body that I will not renig on my commitment to making “her” as healthy as possible and to help “her” to feel secure enough that “she” can continue to shed the excess weight without fear of deprivation.
Been making a recipe for “almond chai cookies” that I really like. Actually they taste more like biscotti because I’m not into making them too sweet. Still yummy though.
A daily long walk, taken ultra early in the morning is something I so look forward to! It’s my time to connect with Nature/God/Goddess/Source.
Got up at 5:09 this morning and was out the door by 5:30. Oh JOY!
I’m not a “religious” person, but prayer is something I really enjoy and there’s no better time than just before sunrise.
Eating raw and walking every day have caused me to be more aware of the Presence of the Creator in my life. I bless the Creator for today and every opportunity that arises.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

There is such a thing as guiltless, raw, “comfort food”.
Yesterday was a rough ride and I was emotionally out of sorts.
I didn’t feel like having my nice healthy juice, or my nice healthy salad.
I pigged out on fresh fruit, almonds, avocados, dates and figs, “neatballs”, and almond butter with a bit of maple syrup. I went for the things I used to think were “bad”,but stayed RAW.
Wouldn’t you know it? I lost another pound when I got on the scale this morning.
When I tallied up the “damage”….surprise, surprise! I hadn’t eaten more calories than I normally do.
Raw healthy monounsaturates…good for the body and good for the soul.
Fat stays with you, gives you that “ahh, relief!” feeling when you’re blue. No wonder people gravitate toward fat and sweet when they eat emotionally. Not a bad direction, it’s just that we’ve got to choose Uncooked RAW, “healthy” stuff like coconut, avocado, olives, almonds, and healthy sweets like fresh fruit. That was the key for me yesterday. I was even able to stay within my self imposed rule to stop eating 3 or 4 hours before bedtime.
This is living!

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

I saw the most incredible full moon set this morning on my walk. Walking just before sunrise is like entering a different world from the mundane one. It was surreal. Actually it was that "real world" that speaks without words, the one that will continue long after we are all gone. I believe the veil is thin in the twilight hours before sunrise and after sunset. A place wherein Tolkein thought the elves dwelled. Really magical.
On a more "mundane" note, I am getting ready to make my first "complicated" recipe from one of my books....neatballs! Just gotta think what kind of sauce I'll make with 'em.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Well, today was an interesting day!
Thought I had to go to the Doctor (allergist) but it's next week, so I've got a reprieve.
Felt a little tired but I'm in a part of my physical cycle where it's to be expected, even so, I'm not as tired as I've been in months past.
Beautiful day!
Decided to stop eating a little earlier today and maybe even go to bed a little earlier as well. I'm giving my "faithful servant" body what she needs and when she needs it.
Still, even being "tired" I'm still thinking of it relatively...I'm still doing more and able to do more than before.
Being tired now is NOT the absolute exhaustion it used to be, it's just my body being a "smidge" slower on the uptake. What a difference!
I've got more energy now being "tired" than I did before going raw, when I wasn't "tired"...Hee Hee!
Life is good, God/Goddess is Good, There is Hope!
And it's a FULL MOON tonight!

Monday, May 03, 2004

I woke up this morning just before 5:30 and decided to go for a nice long walk at my favorite trail. It's really something to see a sunrise again! When you're sick and tired all the time, barely a day goes by that you won't be getting up unless it's as late as possible, because you didn't sleep well the night before and all the nights before that.
Things are different now. As summer is coming with her beauty, her Sunshine, and of course her heat, I'm going to be adjusting my walking schedule accordingly. I have wanted to do this for YEARS, and NOW I CAN!
One of so many blessings of the "raw" life!
I am so greatful!

Sunday, May 02, 2004

I am pursuing a "raw vegan" lifestyle, mainly for theraputic reasons.
I've been a "low carb" dieter for many years.
I've been an "eat anything" eater.
I've been a paleo eater. (70%raw)
I've eaten in the "zone".
And in the past, too, I was an "ovo-lacto" vegetarian.
All of these various disciplines have their good and bad points.
I wasn't thinking of karma when I woke up a month ago and made this descision.
I was considering the fact that I'm not getting any younger, that my asthma and subsequent dependency on steroids,injections and other drugs wasn't exactly good for me.
The steroids left me depressed, in constant systemic pain throughout my body, overweight, skin broken out, tired ALL the time. Horrible insomnia, Unhappy.
I was mad at the medical establishment with its emphasis on "maintenence" and not "cure".
I no longer wanted to be a "steroid junkie" putting out cash to the pharmeceutical company "pushers".
Mind you, I have a good GP doctor and an Allergist both for whom I have the highest respect, but their hands are tied too with regards to the "medical management industry" in the United States. (we don't have healthcare like they have in Canada and Europe)

What changes have taken place?
1. No more insomnia
2. No more pain
3. Meds have been reduced by HALF
4. Weight is Dropping (so far I've lost 20 lbs.)
5. Fatigue has tremendously decreased.
6. Able to walk for over an hour a day when before, I'd be winded at 15 minutes.
7. Face has cleared up.

I realize this is not empiricle evidence.
It's anecdotal, But IT'S MY LIFE we're talking about here!

Also I'm a heck of a lot HAPPIER!
Today IS the best day ever!